happy birthday, dad.

i just remembered that it’s my daddy’s birthday today. well, i haven’t seen him since i was eight years old, and i wonder where he is now. almost eight years had passed without any communication or a simple hello. i just miss him.

happy birthday, dad. wherever you are, i hope you’re happy and safe. i love you.

please make me understand why you left.

i need a hug.

well, feeling lonely again. i found this pic in DeviantArt and the quote from Facebook, and posted it on my tumblr account, Chasing Rainbows. haha. just waiting for minutes to pass by. :)

i am CONFUSED.

kinda. i don't know, i can't seem to think right these days. there must be something wrong with me.

i remember, back in our junior year in high school, our values teacher said,
"confusion results from the misunderstanding of the heart and the mind."

so maybe i'm having troubles with my heart and also with my mind, so i am confused.

stare up at the sky.

while walking together on the way home, mom and i are silent. i looked up at the dark night sky to see some stars staring back at me, and also a few clouds. then from the corner of my eye, i saw mom stare up too.

MOM: hey, look up there.

ME: (looks up) yeah?

MOM: look. isn’t the sky scary?

ME: (looks up and suddenly trembles) w-well, yeah, i guess so. i don’t know, but when i looked up earlier it wasn’t scary.

MOM: well, when i was a kid, i am terrified of the night sky. sometimes i stare straight up at it and suddenly get scared because i feel like it’s gonna eat me.

ME: (looks up again) wow, i get the feeling.

*i miss conversations like this with my mom. we hardly had time for each other. and i’m happy when we get to stumble over things. :)

never do that.

my cousin and i were watching a television show this afternoon, and one of the scenes there was that the guy was cuddling the girl while they are in the car, and he was driving also at that time. and yeah, so predictably, that they met an accident while doing that. i mean, come on, if you’re driving, you should focus on the road only, right?

during the commercial, my cousin and i gave feedbacks.

ME: that was crazy.

COUSIN: yeah, the girl’s a flirt and the guy’s stupid.

ME: well, i think so. i mean it’s a typical scene.

COUSIN: yeah. so if you’ll have a boyfriend, make sure he doesn’t have a car.

ME: uhm? okay..

*LOL. :)

teach me the keys.

the sweetest song is probably the saddest.

drifting away.

i am slowly drifting away from HIM. he looks at me with those sad eyes and tells me to come back, but i keep on running away. that's weird, because i know i can't outrun him, or escape him. kinda confusing.